Elm Streets Last Brat

Sometimes I feel like i'm such an outcast, and people just think i'm a huge weirdo. I feel more awkward than I did in highschool, because in school there are hundreds of kids that are just trying to find themselves, and most of them are awkward, but now as an adult, I feel like I should have figured it out by now. I mean i'm not so much trying to FIND myself, but i dunno. I just feel like i dont fit in anywhere. I don't quite fit in with the adults because my personality is a little too immature and goofy. I CERTAINLY don't fit in with most of my peers, because i'm an "old soul" I guess. Its like I dont really have anyone to talk to that can understand what I feel like. Sure, I can talk to Don and tell him how i feel, but he wont understand it. I just get so embarrassed sometimes when I like try to join a conversation with adults and I say something totally stupid or its just like *crickets* I feel so far off base with everyone like i don't fit into any age group. I have someone I love to spend my life with that I feel is my soul mate and i'm super happy with, yet I still feel like such a loner and like I dont belong anywhere.